Author: Sylvia Gutierrez
April 8, 2020
Today marks 2 months since we received the devastating news about Jag, and time seemed to have stopped for us. There are so many thoughts and emotions, but the words, at this point, still escape me or all jumbled together. For now, I’ve settled for creating picture collages that are merely a glimpse of our life since February 8th; a visual diary of moments that are still, in many instances, a blur; a compass to navigate my way through what feels like one long endless day – with no end in sight; and the first stage in my attempt to capture Jag’s extraordinary life for his 4 children. (These are just a few I am sharing).
Jaguar’s death continues to resonate with many. In filing our taxes recently, the older man learned who we were, and he turned away and sobbed deeply. Others still find it difficult to speak with us without getting emotional. Jag is buried very close to the main road at Fort Sam Houston National Cemetery. We’ve had people stop to offer their condolences and thank us. And we see traces of visitors through miscellaneous items and flowers left at his gravesite. Javier and I thank all of you who still send us messages of support and prayers for us, and Gabby and our grandchildren. Make no mistake, we still survive on those!!! I am grateful to our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ for being my strength and hope through every season of my life. I may never know the why, but I trust in God’s sovereign plan. And though my heart aches deeply, it is not troubled – for Jesus is the anchor of my soul.
To God be the Glory!
– Sylvia
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